Motherhood #1: Would you rather. . .?

I don't know about you, but sometimes, I play little games in my head.  One of them is, "Would I rather do this. . .or that?"

I get terrible migraines (are there migraines that are not terrible?).  I remember, after giving birth to my first son - sans medications - someone asked me, "Wasn't it horrible?" I told them, "I would rather go through Labor & Delivery without meds, anytime, than have a migraine."  I meant it. . .and still do.

Last week, we received an email from our now 9 year olds (3rd grader) teacher requesting we set up a time for the end-of-year conferences.  All parents receive this request, and it is highly encouraged.  My husband quickly emailed me and asked me when I signed us up.  I told him, "I never received it."

So, he sent me a copy.

I ignored it.

Today at lunch, my husband asked again about setting up a time for conferencing.  I told him all the good times were taken, and that if we want to go together, I'd have to find a sitter (virtually impossible, especially for just one hour).  I told him he could go without me.  He pushed.  I pushed back.

I would rather run a marathon than go to another Parent-Teacher meeting for this child.

That said, I have NO desire to run another marathon.  The training is incredibly time-consuming, the marathon takes 4+ hours of my day.  It is exhausting both mentally and physically.  I still would rather run one again, than go to this 30 minute meeting with my son's teacher.

I have been to all other Parent-Teacher meetings.  In fact, as I work at this school, I am frequently caught in the hallway by my sons' teachers, and given updates and stories.  Doesn't that count, albeit informally, as "parent-teacher meetings"? 

Am I bad parent?  I certainly feel some guilt over this (as clearly indicated by this entire blog post on the topic).  But, right now, I feel that I just will not sit through another 30 minute meeting about my son that is negative.  I. Just. Won't.  I will not sit there and listen to all the things I already know - but do not feel the need to hear again (and again, and again).

I would LOVE to sit and listen to someone, anyone, go on and on for thirty minutes about how great my son, how smart he is, how much progress he has made this year. . .I'll sit for just ten minutes to listen to those comments!  No one has offered.  That is not how these meetings go, and I am tired of it.  I am putting my Mommy foot down.

What would I rather. . .in order to go to the meeting?

I would rather go to the Parent-Teacher meeting, than have a migraine. . .I guess. . .